Written on my heart, wishing it wasn't. I want to so very much forget you, that you ever existed, that I ever loved you. I want to forget that I have ever loved at all. That emotion has caused me nothing but misery. I have myself because of love. I can never measure up, I always fail.

I look forward to being alone for the rest of my life. It will be a relief.

Why can I not let you go? I almost broke down and tried to contact you. Then I realized that I still hate you.